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My F**k moment !

 

F**k...sht...f*k!!!


Photo by Camila Quintero Franco on Unsplash



I said it all. Like what the f*k!!! I can’t stop cussing. Everything was going to sh*t...am literally living from another's’ pocket, a dollar a day...why the f*k did l quit my job!

 

F**k! I can’t sleep! I either study late in the night or worry myself out of sleep. Dark eyed circled monster walking....give way...or don’t..l won’t make it outside in daylight. The night is my day!

 

F**k! The sun hasn’t touched my face in weeks, as l only leave my room with the sunset to buy food. No one to see this dark eyed circle monster walking!

 

F**k! What am doing here! This sh*t is so fucking hard! I want to quit but l can’t. I promised myself never to quit again!

 

F**k! I do have a problem! Let me call my friend Jolly l talk it out! Plus l need sleep medication...this fking meditation ain’t helping. Them sport shoes are arriving tomorrow...so am f*king gonna start jogging with sunrise from tomorrow. He missed me and l did too!

 

F*k! Let me f**king post this and go study my f*king exams!

 

Fkkkkkkkkk!!!!!

 

“Hope is important because it can make the present moment less difficult to bear. If we believe that tomorrow will be better, we can bear a hardship today.” – Thich Nhat Hanh
It is okay to have a f**k moment...l did have mine today! It felt good! Have yours whenever you want and remember to reach out to anyone when it is too much to handle. This can be a friend/ family/ Mental Health Specialist or even me by writing to me to my email here: 
lucyjilly.a@gmail.com

Cheers! To taking care of our mental health!

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